Hey Kitty!!!!!!! I didn't see this before! WB! I'm still around I feel the same as you with th obsessing over too much then it falls to crap. Good learnign, and take it day by day. I'm here for support!

I'm new here, but I can see that folks on this board are very supportive. I wish you well on your efforts. We are fighting the same battle, it seems.

Shells!! I missed you! I was hoping you'd still be around!

Thanks for the message Andy, yeah this board is great. I feel like we're all in it together.

Man, I just went back and read my old journal. No wonder I didn't lose weight, I was an IDIOT. Everyday I was like, "Oh man, I didn't exercise and I had eight margaritas." Then I'd eat like 200 calories the next day, then I'd eat five big macs. I mean, I just had no control. With each admission of the junk food I ate I could remember the social event that I ate that at.

Well I've certainly learned from that.

I'm thinking about doing a food journal in here, but I'm a little hesitant, because I don't want to start being obsessed with charting my food.

I think I will. I may change my mind. Opinions are welcome. Please submit them in the form of a Haiku.

Breakfast: Two egg whites RAW! Just kidding they were scrambled. And two pieces of toast.

Lunch: Whoops I forgot to eat lunch. But I had a few pieces of candy downtown before the symphony. They were free!

Dinner: Turkey chili! Pretty good, a little watery. Oh and a few crackers. I am obsessed with crackers. I'm trying to cut down but I eat a few every now and then or else I'd go crazy.

Then we went out, and I had two vodka crans and a small soft pretzel with a bit of cheese sauce. I feel bad putting it here because I was JUST talking about how I was so dumb before about acting like I was eating healthy when I was really eating crap.

I almost deleted that last paragraph.

But that would be lying.

Kitty I do pity
the food choices ****ty
they'll find you gritty

Kitty, you recognize the problem and are willing to do something about it. Those are the first two steps. The final step is to start implementing it.

When I started on my new "lifestyle" in June '06, I weighed 218 in a 36" pant size and was in crappy condition. Now I weigh 202 in a 33" pant size. I was slow to embrace proper eating and still don't always. But, like you I first realized my weaknesses and slowly started implementing it rather than go cold turkey. I think for me this allowed me to integrate this into my day to day life and not just something that you do for an intermittent period.

I think you'll be fine. +1 rep for honesty.

a thought that I try to remember that helps me with this stuff.

"I am tryin to be in shape to live better" not "living my life to try and be in better shape"

it relieves a bit of the pressure cooker.

stay firm with yourself, but don't squeezt the life out of the experience eh.



FF

You need more protein, most of your diet there is carbs. Nice new avatar by the way.

That's a great thought, FF, and thanks for the Haiku Focus.

One of the things I try to remember when I feel guilty about things like pretzels is that even though I'm not eating great, I'm still eating waaay better than I was a month ago, so there's still improvement!

I was trying to eat protein with all my meals, Usually I wouldn't have eaten eggs, I would have just had toast, and I had turkey chili. I tend to not like things that have protein in them, how much more would you suggest? I have chicken and porkchops in the freezer, but I'm just not a huge fan, so I never want to cook them. And fish is way expensive, and it's never on the 'almost expired so it's super cheap' rack. I know last time someone suggested low-fat cottage cheese, which I love, so I could pick up some of that.

If anyone has healthy bargain suggestions, I'd love to hear them, my food budget is VERY low.

Today will be hard, football today you know, all of my friends will want to go to Wendy's and order pizza throughout the day, but I'm going to be a total dork and pack a lunch!

I hope that turkey chili wasn't one of the *****y food choices, because now I have a whole bunch of it, and I'm about to eat it for breakfast. No actually, it's fine, the nutrition facts came with the recipe, and the only thing I changed was from white beans to red beans because there was a can of red beans in the dented can bin for 49 cents.

Thanks for the support everybody!

Ok, well I weighed in this morning....at 167. Which is five lbs less than last week, for those of you who don't want to scroll back and find the last number.

I want to be excited to be in the 160s, but I know five lbs in one week is a lot and I don't know, I feel...hesitant to celebrate.

For those of you who know me (and I guess also if you don't) I promise you that I'm eating entire meals, eating when I'm hungry, and eating enough to keep me going.

Also, though 5lbs seems like a lot for someone my size in one week, the fact that I'm not eating any fast food is a MAJOR change. I mean, we used to eat it CONSTANTLY. Well, my friends still do. I mean, I was just eating so much fat and sugar and sodium and nasty crap...I was reading the nutrition facts online the other day and I can't believe I was eating all that.

So I just have to remember not to get disappointed when it starts to level off to 1 or 2 lbs a week.

That's normal, and I can be patient.

Patient patient patient.

No extreme diets. Repeat repeat repeat.

Starting - 175
1/14/08 - 172
1/21/08 - 167

Oh and for those of you who wanted to know, my frame is on the larger side, I'm 5'8".

Good girl.

Also remember to be patient and/or work harder when it levels off to what seems like nothing. What stingo said about protein. I'm sure you already know this, but I want to emphasize it. Macronutrient balance.

Get this:

My pants, no joke, fell off today.

Outside, in a parking lot.

I'm losing weight to the point of embarrassment! Hahaha!

Fantastic.

But, uhh, you should consider wearing a belt. There are laws.

I think if I wore a belt with yoga pants I'd be breaking fashion law.

Yeah, but wouldn't you rather go to fashion jail than regular jail?

I bet Martha would. XD

All those drab colors... and not a decorative piece in sight.